Wednesday, 13 March 2019

TO BE OR NOT TO BE


Mind, at times, is like the oscillating pendulum of a clock; never decisively remaining steady. Thoughts sometimes go on to and fro, from one extreme to the other; unable to settle down firmly at any point.
I think, rather I always try to think, practically. I don’t believe in any sort of religious rituals. Even so, I did the last rites for my father when he died. That was because my mother wanted me to do it. I didn’t want her to grieve on that score. But when she later died, I didn’t do the last rites for her and limited the event to just cremation of her body. I abstained from attending the last rites of my relatives too, because, to me it was all unnecessary follow-ups which have no consequential effect or purpose.
Traveling has always been a pastime with me. I enjoyed seeing landscapes, rivers, lakes, caves, ancient and new structures, palaces, monuments, museums, places of worships etc. I visited many temples, not for offering prayers; but just to see the beautiful carvings and marvelous sculptures.

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The pilgrimage trip to Haridwar and Hrishikesh started from Delhi by a private bus hired by our travel agents. We, me and my wife, had gone to Delhi for an official function. I decided to connect it to a visit to Haridwar and Hrishikesh, the places where I had never been before. As soon as we boarded the bus, there was a formal introduction among us who were to travel together. We were then addressed by the guide. “I welcome all the passengers on board. We are heading for the most sacred destination where you will get rid of all the past sins in your life. Having a dip in the sacred Ganges is a life ambition for many and you are going to have the most blissful day in your life tomorrow. We will reach Haridwar by 3 AM where you will first get accommodated ….” The tour guide in the bus was quite vociferous. I keenly listened to him as he continued with his stories of the sacred Ganges, the Himalayas and so on. I participated actively in the ensued discussions and the guide was happy that every one showed interest in what he spoke. Some of the tourists started singing devotional songs. As the bus went on, night fell. We had started from Delhi in the evening. With darkness outside, some have begun to close their eyes welcoming a sound sleep.
After a two hour rest at the destination, where an arrangement for our ablutions was provided, we were taken to the bathing ghat of Haridwar. We, me and my wife, had no intention of bathing in the river and therefore did not carry any bath towel or soap. It was a December day and too cold even to think of a bath in the river. I just stood aside over a road bridge, watching the vast vista of the river. The river was flowing freely and hastily. On the banks, there were many people, apart from those who came in our bus. The stones in the riverbed seemed slippery as I found some people losing balance as they entered the water. I preferred to watch people bathing, their anxiety, and their resolute faith which prompted them to enter the risky river bravely and take dips. The river water near the ghat was too dirty. Many plastic matters kept on flowing in the river with bundles of flowers floating along with them. Near the banks, the water was oily and dirty. Some people dipped thrice, some for more times and some endlessly. I was searching for the guide, when suddenly he appeared before me from nowhere.
“Are you not taking bath?” He questioned astonishingly. I thought of making an excuse and said that I had not carried the bath towel with me.
“That is no problem. We can get a fresh one on hire. Come with me”, he said.
It was rather an order and not an advice. He started walking. I remained at where I was and he returned his steps to me when he realized that I was not following. I blurted out another excuse. I said that I had a little fever in the night and that I didn’t want to take a dip in that cold water. He won’t let me free even then.
“Just take a dip and see. All your illness and all sins will wash off from your mind and body”, he assured.
 It was time then to tell him bluntly what I really had in mind. I told him that I did not believe that any one’s sins would get washed by taking a dip in any river. If that be so, anyone can do any sin and get away with it. That did not make any sense to me, I earnestly told him.
Then why did you come with us?” His question was perturbing. It was as if taking a dip in the holy water was the main purpose of our visit.
“Just to see the place”, I answered.
More embarrassing was his next question, “Are you a Hindu or a Muslim?”
Without answering, I looked back at the river. The guide walked off. One old man in our lot was being helped by two of his relatives to take a dip. Once in the water, he lost his balance and fell down. The guide also reached to help him out, but the old man suffered some injury on his hand and was crying out loudly. The guide got him dried and helped him change his dress. He was then rushed to a nearby hospital.  I hired a small boat for a ride in the river. I took a handful of water from the Ganges and dropped it back to the river. Lingering in my mind was the Mahabharata story.  “The mother of Bhishma”, I muttered to my wife as I looked at the vast expanse of the river.
We were soon back in the bus. The old man had a bandage on his hand. The guide was no more much talkative and did not look at me at all. We were the only ones who did not take a dip and it seemed that everyone had noted it. I had a feeling that we were being looked down as strangers suddenly by others too.
“When you are in Rome, do as the Romans do”, my wife ate my ears with that old proverb.
Sure. I will think about it when we go to Rome”, I replied curtly.
“Our own proverb says that when the whole country runs, run in the middle”, she persisted.
“Yes. We are seated in the middle of this bus and the bus keeps running. Where is the problem?” I was not going to leave.

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As traveling was a pastime, so was reading too with me. Until I read the book “Gumnani Baba- A case history” written by Sri Adheer Som, I had never before heard of the Baba who came to India in the fifties, and lived a solitary life, unknown to others even by a name. From where he came and why he remained anonymous was a mystery to many. The book leaves it to the readers to decide who he was. It was almost a research work supplementing and supporting everything said in it with documents, manuscripts, extracts from confidential files, excerpts from interviews and so on. I was just dumb found on reading it. I made my own searches in google, news reports of yesteryears and whatever articles I could lay my hands on. Thoroughly, I must say thoroughly, I was convinced that Gumnani Baba was none other than Netaji Subhash Chandra Bose. I had studied at school that he died in a plane crash. Later I had also come to know that there was a mystery connected to his disappearance. A commission under a retired Judge of the Supreme Court of India, popularly called the Mukherjee Commission, was set up in 1999 to inquire into the mystery of the death of Netaji. After a 7 year spanning inquiry, Sri Mukharjee had concluded in his findings that Bose did not die in any plane crash. Even though the Parliament rejected his findings, Mukherjee succeeded in keeping alive the flame of mystery surrounding the disappearance of Bose. Mukherjee had concluded that no such plane crash happened in Tiapai during the said period and that the plane crash theory appeared to be a cover up to facilitate his escape from the British who had declared him a war criminal. The Commission had also found out that the ashes of Bose said to have been kept in the Tokyo’s Renkoji temple, in fact, was of a Taiwanese army man who died in August 1945.
That alone was not the reason for my conviction. Gumnami Baba died in 1985, almost an year after Smt indira Gandhi’s death. Going through the yesteryears’ report I had found that the Times of India on 22-09-2017 had published a report that most people believe Gumnami Baba was Netaji. The report went on to say that Justice (retired) Vishnu Sahai who was appointed to inquire into the identity of Gumnami Baba told the paper that “a majority of witnesses who deposed before the commission said that Gumnami Baba was Netaji”.
The belongings of Gumnami Baba, found after his death, were extra ordinary to be for an ordinary seer. Inland letters and telegrams written by and received from Dr. Prabitra Mohan Roy (a senior official of Bose’s INA intelligence wing) were said to be found among his belongings. Binoculars used by INA, a German typewriter and Japanese crockery were also found. A newspaper cutout of 1978 that mentions Bose was still alive was also found among the belongings. A handmade map of Bangladesh, a book titled ‘Himalayan  Blunder’ and communications that pointed to his active involvement in world politics found among his belongings could not be of any interest to a mere saint. Hung on the wall of his room was the photograph of Netaji’s parents. Photograph of 22 family members of Subash Chandra Bose, apart from those of the parents, found in the belongings were recognized by Lalitha Bose, the daughter of Bose’s brother, who visited Faizabad on 04-02-1986.  Rolex watch, empty bottles of perfumes, empty packets of his brand (555) cigarettes (things which Netaji was fond of) were also said to have been found in the seer’s belongings. Mukherjee’s report did not conclusively say that Gumnami Baba was Netaji, but I saw the video of Times Now in which Sri Mukherjee confirmed before Amala Ghosh, a documentary maker, that he was 100% sure that the anonymous monk was Netaji. Sri Mukherjee seemed unaware that his interview was being recorded. The monk’s belongings are now under the safe custody of the sub-treasury at Faizabad, the place where the saint died. Times of India on Sept 16, 2015 ( read online) made a report on how they cremated Gumnami Baba quietly in Guptar Ghat. They said to have interviewed one Sushila Devi, 57, who ran a tea shop near Saryu river in Faizabad in which she confessed that the body of Gumnami Baba was brought by a mini bus at the Guptar Ghat on Sept 18, 1985. The News paper reported that Baba passed away on Sept 16, 1985; and the message of his death was sent to Netaji’s family. Why was it that a saint’s dead body was kept in waiting for two days before cremation? What was the necessity to inform the Netaji’s family about his death?  Some questions remain unanswered. When no one turned up, the body was cremated near Guptar ghat, in the cantonment area of Faizabad. So much and more were there for me to be completely convinced that Gumnami Baba was none other than Netaji. I yearned to see the cremation place of this man, who was put under the sword of Democles by the British, for his sustained and continued effort to attain freedom for his motherland. While all the national leaders are honoured on their death anniversaries, here was a real hero whose death remain obscured in the debris of history.  I decided to visit Guptar Ghat in Faizabad to pay my obeisance to this great man.  Faizabad, I learned,  was a town near Ayodhya.

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Not long after, I found that a package tour of Ayodhya and Varanasi was planned to be conducted by a travel agency. I didn’t have to think twice for joining the trip. My destination was Faizabad more than Ayodhya or Varansi. I met the travel agent in person and requested whether they can include Faizabad also in the itinerary since it is very close to Ayodhya. He had not even heard of Faizabad and asked me whether I meant Faridabad. I said that I was talking about Faizabad only which is very near to Ayodhya.
“What is its importance?” he asked.
“That is where Gumnami Baba was cremated.” I quipped.
“I have not heard of him. But if you want to visit there you may skip one day temple tour at Ayodhaya, hire a car and go all by yourselves. We can’t make any general change in the itinerary.”, he said and I agreed.

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We were to get down at Lucknow station for our trip to Ayodhya. It was 01.30 PM. The tour agent received us at the station. A coach was arranged by him to take us from the station. After boarding, he gave vent to his astonishment that the train did reach in time at Lucknow. It was the first time in his experience as tour agent that he found this train coming well in time. Usually it reached late in the evening or at night. He said that as it was after a long journey, the day was free for us to rest and the tour would start only from the next day morning.
“We would be staying at Faizabad today, as there are no good lodges near Ayodhya”, he announced.
“Where did you say we are staying?” I could not control my excitement and asked loudly.
“At Faizabad”, he repeated.
That is where I wanted to be. Without missing the temple tour, I would be able to visit the place I really wanted to visit. I felt lucky that the train was in time and also that the stay was at Faizabad.
Immediately after a bath, we readied ourselves to proceed to Guptar Ghat. I hired an auto rikshaw. The way was long muddy and rough. But finally we reached Guptar ghat. The place of cremation was built up with stones to raise into a platform. A banner raised behind portrayed the picture of Gumnami Baba. The banner had the name of Subhash Chandra Bose Vichar Kendra, as its promoter. We paid our obeisance in silence. An old man from behind me announced without any one’s asking that it was the crematory of Sri Subhash Chandra Bose.

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It was after a long road journey that we arrived at Varanasi from Ayodhya. We reached in the evening. The next two days were for us to visit Kashi Viswanath temple and pray or do whatever offerings we wanted. The guide announced that those who wanted to do the offering of ‘bali’  for the souls of our departed fore fathers should get ready by 5 AM and also that they should make a payment of Rs.1500/- each for the arrangements for their bath in Ganges and preparation of the requirements to do the offerings. Those who did not want to do the offerings need to be ready only by 9 AM and they may wait in their own room until others return. People started giving their names and making payments. I decided to have a comfortable sleep till late in the morning and retired to my room with my wife.
I was about to get into sleep when someone rang the bell. I got up and opened the door. It was the guide.
“Every one other than you two have paid up the money to do the ‘Bali’ offering in the morning. Are you sure that you do not want to do it or is it that you missed up the information. I just thought of confirming”, the Guide said.
So, that was the priority for everyone. I remembered the Haridwar incident. I looked at my wife. Her expression was a sort of pleading to me to join the main stream.
“I will come to your room and let you know in a moment”, I replied to the guide. He went off.
“It looks odd that we alone stand away. Whether you believe or not, let us be one with them.”, my wife appealed to my practical sense.
“I too feel so”, I said. “Or else we would feel like a fish out of  water. We have a few more days to be together and travel around.”, I explained.
I went to the guide’s room and paid up the amount.

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Next day morning, everyone was seated in rows on the ground near the Ganges river. Earlier, we had taken our bath in the river. The water was cold and had a soothing effect. Bathing in it made me remember my childhood days when we used to spend hours together in the river. I took several dips before coming out. It was a pleasant experience.
The leaf in front of each person was filled with numerous items including flowers, sesame seeds, different types of grains and so on. The main item on it was a big ball of wheat flour dough. There was a pot of water kept near each leaf. A chief priest was giving directions to all on how to go about.
“Make 30 small balls out of the big ball before you”, he commanded. Everyone did so.
“Keep them on the left side of the leaf”, he continued. Everyone did so.
“All of those whose father has expired, take one ball and think about your father in your mind”, he stated. Everyone did so.
“Now keep it on the right side of the leaf”, he went on.
 “Put a little sesame seed and grains above it”, he continued.
“Now pour a little water over it”, he said.
Now put a few flowers too”, he guided.
“Now all those who had lost their mother, take another ball and think about your mother”….
The process was to be continued for mother, grandparents, father’s brothers and sisters, mother’s brothers and sisters, father-in-law, mother-in-law and so on for all those who were expired. Finally, a few more balls were left.
“Take all those balls together and think about all the expired persons you value, irrespective of whether they are related to you or not.” It was Netaji’s face alone that came to my mind.
When that also completed, we were told to roll the leaf with all the balls and all the contents in it and submit them to the Ganges. That was also done.

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“So you did all those things which you stubbornly refused to do”, my wife said on our way back.
“Not out of faith, but just to be together in this group”., I replied.
“Whom did you think in your mind when the priest said to think about your father?, She queried.
“Who else will you think when someone asks you to think about your father?”, my answer was a question in return.
“And whom did you think in your mind when the priest said to think about your mother?, She queried.
“Whose face will come to your mind when someone asks you to think of your mother?”, Again it was a counter question from me.
“ Do you know who made you to do all these?”, She was not to leave me.
“The priest”, I answered.
“No. It was them, the souls”, She laughed.
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